The Proposal-I do!

Hello,
well in a attempt to get more involved with this blog I am currently trying to clear up a few barriers in my life to get myself underway for my true goal. So how does the story go...
So from completing my Masters degree I was bitten by the ambitious bug of continuing my study and pursuing a PhD in Deep Ecology and the opportunities this ecological philosophy could offer education for sustainability initiatives.
Over the space of about three years I have had to submit 3 research proposals and then was asked to submit a fourth. As you can imagine this took its toll on my confidence and my yearning to be creative for the planet’s sake. I think often about the quote from Albert Einstein,
“We cannot solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created them.”
I love nature. I love beautiful ecosystems, clean water, etc... But I feel as though that the way society is operating and the choices that many of us are making are placing a great deal of stress onto the planet and ultimately ourselves. My belief is that education for sustainability initiatives and their current implementation are merely scratching the surface, they are ‘light green’. That’s why I favour going deep. Changing thinking, changing behaviour, changing ideas of what our place on this planet is and what our purpose is. Through my research I have found many links between sustainability, philosophy, systems theory, chaos theory and Buddhism. I cannot deny the discovered emergent patterns between this literature and through presentations from some of the proponents of these ideas.
A PhD is a sizable endeavour and when deciding to put energy into it, your own self-belief needed must be strong. I lost it. I really thought the PhD was about bringing something new to the world. I respected the process of using credible previous research but was increasingly getting frustrated with having to justify my claims only through modern journal articles. Journal articles that seemed so clinical, so sterilized that the opportunity for something new to emerge was stifled by multiple revisions.
I had to trust my heart. I had to trust that what I was discovering, the heuristic journey that I was on, was right, was worthy of further investigation and presentation. That is why recently I canceled my enrolment at the university and decided to pursue this research, this uncovering in the realm of cyberspace.
Thought, Word, Action. A trinity, a model that gives me strength to continue thinking, writing and hopefully applying this knowledge to the outside world. Action is super important, especially when the planets clock of hope ticks away. I had until 2015 to complete my PhD. Who knows what further damage,will be done to the planet in that time. So the action is needed now. My research I believe is needed now. I am giving it a life…now.
So feel free to check out my proposal, what I endeavoured to do. In this blog I will present my insights and ideas of how deeply going into sustainability can help with personal growth and the health of the planet.
Who knows what this journey will look like and what it will uncover? Maybe it will culminate in a book, a lecture series, a workshop? Regardless of its manifestation I hope it helps you and your own green thinking.

My PhD proposal can be located at http://www.scribd.com/doc/34200970/The-Ecocell-Project-120710